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Understanding

~Understanding~ I don’t understand, Why duct tape fixes everything, Why chicken soup always makes you feel better. Why chocolate makes you fat. Most of all I don’t understand, Why people can’t forgive. Grudges are held, Hate is heated, Light goes to black, Friends to enemies, Instruments fade away and voices get louder. What I understand the most is, When we forgive, Grudges are let go, Hate cools, Sun comes back, Enemies become friends, What I hear is music to my ears.

Trusting people!

How can you prove to some one that you mean what you say? You can say the same thing over and over bit they still might not listen to you. Benjermen Franklin has a simple answer. He said, "People may doubt what you say, but they will alway believe what you do." What Mr. Fanklen is saying is that to fain someones trust you have to show them, not jsut tell them. I can promise my mom that I'll clean my room but, that promise means nothing until I actually do it .......oops! lol We can also apply this to our lives as Christians. In order to get people to listen to us we have to show them what we are different. If we say we are different because of Christ then go get drunk, our actions will speak louder than words. So next time you say you will do something, DO IT! ( yes I need to clean my room). Next time you say you are different, PROVE IT! If you do this, over time more and more people will trust you more and more and let me tell ya, having people trust you is a gre

Stress

It's closing in all around me, Coming closer I can hardly see. There's a 10 pound weight on my chest, Seriously you're lucky I'm even dressed. I'm stuck in a mess, This little thing called stress. All the voices getting loud, I wish I could float away on a cloud. A smile every where I go, The things I deal with no one will ever know. I want to sink down deep, Into an ever lasting sleep. Never to rise, And face the endless lies. I don't understand, Why am I always the one getting slammed? I know every one else has bad problems too, But they all seem to have a matt, jack, or sue. My friends see me glow, So many things, would they care to know? I reach for someone with which my pain to share, But as I reach the only thing I feel is air. At the end there used to be hope, But now I see NOTHING that can help me cope. With the pain inside, Little by little I have died. Now there's barely anything there, How can I continue to bear? Someone is throwing a dart, Right

I CUT MY HAIR!!

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JUST 4 U MISS MAGGIE!! ;) lol see no color!! but I'm thinking I'll do purple like jen's next.. like soon? lol love ya! OK I CUT MY HAIR!! like 6" off it!!! lol so the first pic I really like but if you look close at the 2nd pic at he back ground it's just realllly cool!! lol so ya! tell me what ya'll think! xoxo

different people

I just finished reading a book (bright purple by melody carlson) it is absolutely amazing. It's part of a series that deals with hard issues for teens today. I HIGHLY RECOMMEND ALL OF THEM! This one was about homosexuals. Basically this girls best friend tells her she is a lesbian. She has to work through all her fear, anger, confusion, and hate. By the end of the book she comes to realize that while homosexuality is a sin Jesus still wants us to love and accept the person though not the sin. Do you remember that story in the bible where the prostitute is about to get stoned and Jesus of all people comes to her defense? "Let you who have no sin cast the first stone." Basically he is the only one that could do that. He saved this lady's life by loving her. She changed and they all went on ladedodeda. No it doesn't always happen like that, sometimes people don't change, things don't always work out. Now you might be thinking, "well I am not a homosexual

Depressed

Everything is so dark, So hopeless. A cloud over head. Every time the sun starts to shine, The clouds close up and it pours. Swimming in jello. Not dead, Not alive. Tears come way to much, Curled in a fetal position. Trembling with fear, Trying to sleep it away. Moving like a snail, No energy. Rocks in the throat, Forcing another breath. Slowly fading like the sun, Disappearing like sugar in water. Black is good, Black is safe. Crying tears of blood, Head spinning. Bed is the best place, No need to pretend. Quick sand pulling, Starting to drown. Crying for help, NOTHING.

HELLLLLLLLLPPPP!!!!!!!!!!

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NO BANGS SIDE BANGS POOF BANGS HELLLLLLLLP!!!! ok I need every one to vote in the poll and tell me what I should do!!! I'm about to cut about 4" (at least) off my hair and I'm trying to figer out what to do with my bangs..... So ya I need you guys to vote and let me know!!!! (THE POLL IS AT THE BOTTOM PAGE) XOXOXOXO Sarah

Some Day My Prince Will Come

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♪SOME DAY MY PRINCE WILL COME♫ OK every one go "awwww" yes I love this pic and it reminds me of that song from Snow White. Do you ever look around and feel like Snow White, like you will never find that one person, and everyone around you has their bf and gf and your just kinda standing there smiling wondering if you will ever find that one person it seems everyone else has already found. I feel like this all the time! I have tried dating and I learned a lot from both of the relationships I was in but I guess that they just weren't right. I just don't understand why I can't find that perfect guy.... then I happen to remember that I'm only 16!!!! What the heck do I want a boyfriend for? I'm having sooo much more fun flirting with every guy ;) Ok ya it would be totally awesome to always have some one there and some one that likes you for you and that you don't have to impress. But seriously, I have my whole life ahead of me for that. I guess I'm ju
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This is my blue hair.... although it has pink in it now... and I might go black soon but I'm not sure... lol but ya I love it!!!

Seth

Hey, Seth got hurt at a hockey tournament and now he is at the hospital so if you guys could all pray. It's only his knee but it could be really a long time getting better... so ya that's bout all I know :) It could be just lots of ice and propping it up...... either way it's not fun! lol thanks! :*)

Life is Stupid

Ok so first I am on my way to spanish I take the wrong way and have to wast $1 on toll stuff and that makes me late to class.... then I do really bad on a quiz...... then I drive all the way home witch is a lot of gas. I get home for like 2 seconds ( ok like 10 min) then go to gymnastics and was late there too cuz spanish got out a little late. So yesterday I get a call from my coach she said that I made it to state!!!! My freshman year I went on bars last year I went on vault, but this year I'm going on both!!!! yes I'm totally stoked! when I got there my coach handed me a paper saying that I was the athlete of the month in alllll of our district! ya amazing! So I go to the gym tonight living off of the sugar of root beer and cookies... ya if you do sports you know that's NOT a good thing, and it wears off way to fast! But I'm so determined to do well and get ready for state on Saturday and hopefully try some new skills. I worked bars for 2 hours straight I tried to d

My Life Unscripted by Tricia Goyer (book review)

Before I say anything else I'm gonna say . . . YOU HAVE TO GET THIS BOOK!!!!!! Ok! With that out of the way, I think I should probably tell ya a little about it book. My Life Unscripted book is THE BEST devotional style book I have ever read. Instead of a strict Bible study where you read then write a response to the teaching, it is set up in random sections that include several different ways to think about the subject. You can read literal scripts that are based on the author's life as well as her thoughts on each subject. You can write what you think as you go. There are also Bible verses and quotes from teens telling about their experiences. (And yours truly is quoted several times. :o)) This book is not directed to the "perfect" girl in any way. It is for real people who struggle with real life. In this book Tricia is completely honest with the mistakes she made as she was trying to find who she was. I love the way she is so vulnerable with her life, writing to

The Butterfly (2)

! The Butterfly (2) ! Dipping and dodging, Twisting and turning, For the first time, Butterfly. Stretching to the sky, Floating on the wind, Sun dancing through wings. Butterfly Posing for admirers, Perched on a white rose, Flirting with life, Butterfly.

The Buterfly (1)

More Home work! %The Butterfly% Curled in a ball, The dark all around, Nice and warm, SAFE What is that? It’s bright! Shrinking back, What to do now? It grows stronger, SCARED It’s beautiful, Still not moving, Feeling the draft, It’s refreshing, CURIOUS Slowly stretching, Turing towards the light, Welcoming the warmth, All around, Exposed to the world, FREE

Breath

When I was writing this it was for my poetry class but every time I read it it reminds me of my friend Jennie! It's just sooo her! So ya I think I might start posting my poems that I write for home work if ya'll don't mind :) love ya! *Breath * The grass tickles my feet. The mud squishes between my toes. A branch brushes my cheek. The water rushes at my ankles. The sun shining hot through the trees, hot on my head. Cool, fresh spring breeze waves my hair. The sweet smell of the flowers in my hair catch on the air. A bird sings, A woodpecker pecks, A bug buzzes. Just standing there. Soaking it all in. It’s barely different now, Than when I was three. The only thing changed in this forest is me.

Looking Glass

When I look in the mirror all I want to see, Is nothing but plain old me. When I raise my eyes I see a stranger, My hear beats fast as if there were danger. Should I pull from my eyes the hair? My hands shake, do I dare? Who’s eyes are those? Almost as strange as those toes. I’m buried deep inside, Almost as if I died. What would it take to make me alive? In the cool deep water I could dive. To wash away all the fake, And raise the social stake. What if they don’t like who I am? And block me out just like a dam. I don’t know if I could bear, Then I think, why do I even care? No one tells the waves what to do in the sea, So why should they tell me? I will step into my own, Even if I do it alone.

RANDOM FACTS

1. I LOVEEEEEE to read 2. Some of my best friends I haven't seen in like FOREVER! Yet they are still awesome friends! 3. OMG! I love being single! 4. I hope to be a gymnastics coach some day 5. Acting is one of my passions 6. I have never really kissed a guy (or a girl.... lol) 7. I'm really running out of ideas for my blog! so if you have any let me know! 8. I reallllly love working fast food... idk why!?!?! it's sooo weird but I love it! 9. I went to home coming at a a school this year 10. I'm working back hand springs ON the beam AHHHH!!!!! *PRAY* lol 11. I love my car!!!! 12. Gerber Daisys are like my favorite flower! 13. I love blue hair!! 14. I have a secret world I go to and I don't think I will ever tell any one about it! 15. My berth stone is a purple!!!! how did that on happen!? 16.I LOVE MY GYMNASTICS COACH! I wish all of you knew her you would love her too! 17. I love my gymnastics team!!!! They are some of the coolest people I know!!!! you all would lov

Being yourself

Being your self no matter what? oh gosh that's hard! I think I finally started being my self no matter where I am or who I'm with. this has been a big step for me. I have always felt like I'm one person at gymnastics, one person at school, one person at church,one person at speech and debate. That is like 4 different people I am! That isn't very healthy. Yet it's something almost everyone will go through before they are grown, most will fight it for the rest of their life too. about 3 months ago I finally figured out who I am. Now that person isn't going to be some one realllly smart, realllly athletic, or realllly artsy. I am all of those things wrapped in one, I'm not really good at any of them but put a little of each together and that's me! Yesterday 2 of my best friends were declared speech captains for our club. It's really hard not to be jealous because I have done speech longer than both of them. But one thing they don't know is I'm

Closed Books

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Closed book Am I the only one? That feels completely undone? As I look, I feel like every one is a closed book. All sharing smiles, All we really want to do is run away for miles. Yet we stand there and shake hands, Talking about the latest bands. Waiting inside stories untold, Of pain rust and mold. All the hurt that has been given, We try to keep it hidden. Though when we're alown, We groan. With the fear, Of not being dear. All the things done wrong, Viberate in my head like a big Chinese gong. It won't allow me to let go, The guilt and shame just seems to grow. They are listed one by one, Oh what have I done! But stop and listen to us talk, You'll hear a prep, punk, or jock. Why do we hide, What we have inside? Why are we so embarrassed? It's not like these things are cherished! Heave a deep sigh, Some how some way we are going to get by. Maybe we should take a moment to deeply look, Find a key and OPEN the CLOSED book.

What do I look like?

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Melissa and me with our cookies! " Do you want a soda?" "No thanks prom is saturday and I have to fit in my dress!" "Ummm ok...." Ok so this is what it is with most of my friends, Some of them are like that when there is something big comming up. Some are just like that all the time. And I just don't get it! Ok so ya I don't gain weight and I eat a tone, but that's because I work out atleast 2 hours a day (gymnastics). When I think about it being fit isn't just about how I look, it's more about taking care of my body. If every one just added a little exsersize in their day, 1 they would loose weight and 2 they would have more energy and be a lot happyer. I know this because my mom just started exsersizeing and she is much nicer.... lol ;) And starving yourself a week before prom will do you no good. This is a picture of my best friend and me the day of prom. We had a sleepov

Guys/Life

Guys are sometimes rude, And nearly always crude. BUT, sometimes they can be totally sweet, I mean having a guy look at you like that is really neat. He's as cute as a bug, When he gives you a hug. But where are his eyes staring? Don't you think that's a little daring? But then he lightly touches your hand, Oh the tingle down your spine is so grand! What does he say when your not around? Is he talking to the guys and putting you down? When he says something to make you blush, Your heart just turns to mush. You give a long sigh, With so much happiness how could one die? But then you blink, And so much faster then you think. You grew up, Almost as fast as filling up a cup. When you look deep in the core, You know it just won't work anymore. Then it's done, Just as fast as it begun. Lord take care of him, Don't let his vision be dim. Let him live for you, And for the girl he will someday marry too.
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ok so I'm just showing ya'll that I bleached my hair!!!!! I can dye the bottom different colors too!! lol so far I have only done pink... but I think it's pretty awesome!!!!! ( can you tell that I just figered out how to put up pictures?!?!?!) lol SEE CHRISTANS CAN BE WEIRD TOO!!! lol wow
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I just thought this was soooo pretty!!!! (I did play with the colors some on the computer.. lol) ISN'T IT COOL!?!? lol ok I'm done now!!

Teasting

Every one looks at Job in the Bible and says "man poor guy look at what he lost and the pain he went through!" God looked at Job and said "he can handle it, he is my child and his heart belongs to me." If you read the story you will see that before satin was able to even touch Job he had to ask premistion. Every step of the way he had to keep going back to God and ask if he could do anything else to hurt one of God's servants. He is like a little kid that has to ask every time he wants a cookie! And yet God still let Job go through all that pain. WHY!?!?! Because God KNEW that Job could handle it and would not turn his back on him. Even with every one around him saying "Job! It would be better to curse God and die than to live!" Job shook his head and knew that there was a reason for everything. In the end God blessed Job and gave him MUCH more than he had before! So let's put this in today's scope. What ever your going through, it's not

Pain

I wish someone was out there, Watching me glare. Then they would see my pain, Then they would see through my smile and know it's all just a game. How can I go on? Everything I do just seems so wrong! Each morning as the sun rises I mone, Not yet ready to get out of my comfort zone. Love is gone, Yet some now I have to move on. Barly holding on to hope, Not knowing how to cope. Friends have moved out, They think I'm fine with out a doubt. as the days roll by I'll just sit here and wait, And they'll go on yet another date. Loneliness is closing in, How can I get up and start again? Why should I even try? Would it not be better just to die? Trying to be hot, The mior telling me I'm not. Struggling to learn, But my head just starts to burn. Now I understand that the mess I see, Is not everyone else, it's me. I'll grab a hand, Slowly stepping to ferm dry land. The raging waters behind, No longer mine. It's in someone else's care, No longer mine to bear.

FUNESS!

So my family is up in the mountians for a week. We got a really cool condo with 2 beadrooms and bathrooms, ya I got stuck on the couch... lol oh well I dont' really care! it's really nice with 3 TV/dvd/vcr players, indoor/outdoor pool, game room, library, and free movie rentals! I have been to many condos in my life because of the timeshare thing..... but I think I like this one the best so far! It was really cool because when we got it we wern't expecting anything to nice, we new it had a cool swimming pool but that's about it! When we got there I just felt so cool! like a huge weight from the last few weeks was lifed off me. I smiled again, ate again, and even volanteered to clean the kitchen!!!! lol It was just a little present from God I think. He knows just when we don't feel like we are going to make it any further and then he puts his arms around us and gives us a present... kinda like Santa Clause! lol Well my time on the computer is running out so I better

Weird day!

I SAW MY LIFE FLASH BEFORE MY EYES! Ya... scary hu? lol well I kinda had a car wreck.... ya it was a couple days ago..... and let me tell ya I'm still shaking from it!! I didn't hit anything or gt hurt but the car is kinda sad... lol we are trying to fix it... but I can't drive it. So that plus other stuff that has been happening... like trying to get a job.... missing all my friends..... and stuff like that, I'm like totally over the top. But I have really for the first time in my life felt God holding my hand through it all. He has been right there the whole time even when I was spinning out of control I knew God was there I just felt it... it was a weird but awesome feeling. After that happened I realized how much each and every one of my friends means to me. Everyone from the people I haven't seen in a few years to my closest friends. If anything happeneds to any of them or to me it's just really great to know that we are friends and care about each other an

Prayernessstuffya....

This morning was total crap! I got up had a fight with my parents, I was soooo mad and stuff that Seth... yes this is MY BROTHER SETH.... like the one that beats me up... lol anyway he gave me a real hug!!! lol For those of you who know how Seth and I are (we love each other and show it by hitting or mouthing off to each other) you know that's pretty much amazing! So I go to church and I pretty much yell at God the whole service. Our paster talked about having people that you could talk to and having people that are always there for you and being there for others. Also, how God is always there..... ya I had 2 of my best friends EVER on ether side of me and I don't know if I have a pride issue... or what because I couldn't admit to them that I just needed a friend to give me a hug and maybe even cry with me (yes Sarah does cry.... sometimes lol). And I'm yelling at God because he made me this way. Because he wasn't there for me, ever since I got back from camp it se

HELL

Before I go in to this I just want to say I believe in what I see in the Bible, you are born a sinner and unless you turn to God and give your life over to him then you will die a sinner and go to hell. This doesn't explain WHY? When we have angels and demons, God and Satan. Why can't we just settle everything on earth? Or why dose the spiritual people have to pull us in to their stuff? Why would such a "all loving", "merciful" ,"caring" , God put some people in hell and some in heaven? When God has said in the Bible that every sin is just that a sin. Some one might kill their sister, but I might just think about killing my brothers (lol), it's all the same to God a sin is a sin. So why do when I say I'm sorry for my sins and the other dude just laughs at God what did he do to deserve eternal damnation??? I have to say I feel sorry for the people that don't know and/or don't care about what happens in the "after life". SO

THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE!

Ok guys! Here is what my day was like! I got up did math that I actually understood (for those of you who know me well you know that like NEVER happens!) then I went to work on year book! Yes I love doing this! I got there about 11:30am and didn't get home till 10:00pm! I was soooo in heaven we worked on so much stuff like the love bug page.... MY ALL TIME FAVORITE! We finished the year book! During this time I put in an applications at a cool place to work because I knew the manger would be there. When I went in and gave him my application, he said he would look over it and call me to set up an interview. Now guys, I have one friend that works there and another that just picked up an application! Wouldn't that be awesome to work with 2 of my good friends!?!?! lol Ok so I think it would be heaven! Just pray that I get the job! Guys I can't explain the fun I had today! I saw my whole year laid out before me in our year book and this year has been one of the best and worst

Harry Potter

You have all at least heard of the Harry Potter books.... if not......... I'll give you a little of the story line...... Harry Potter was just a baby when the most powerful wizard killed his mom and dad and tried to kill him, but for some reason the little baby got away with only a scar on his forehead. Now this was unheard of, if this guy wanted you dead then you would be dead. Through out all the books he is questioning why did this have to happen? Why me? Why can't I just be normal and have my parents? In the long run he ends up saving his school, his friends, his teachers, and in a few ways he saves the world. It was all because of what happened when he was little.... if he was normal, if he did have his parents, if he didn't have amazing and unusual talents because of the scar (kinda), he would not have been able to stand up and save him self and all these people. So why the heck did I just say all that? Because I often ask God why? why me? Why can't I just be lik

10 things most people don't know about me! (stuppid and random mostly)

1~ I love hanging out with my m oms friends! 2~ When I was little and the Summer Olympics came o n I would go to my room and close the door and t ry to do back flips! ( it's a wonder I'm still alive!) 3~ I think ther e should be full contact football for girls! 4~ One of my favorite songs is Ama zing Grace 5~ I think my favorite color to paint my nails is BLACK! 6~ I love little kids s o much that I considered starting a day care when I got older 7~ I get REALLY shy around a bunch of new people when I don't have friends with m e ( I JUST found this one out at camp! lol) 8~ My brothers and I really do love each other even though we pretty much kill each other when we are around other people! 9~ One of my favorite books when I was li ttle was The Velveteen Rabbit 10~ I REALLY should be in bed right now! lol But I love my friends! And Jesus loves me! (wow talk about RANDOM !)

DATING

Ok I know a lot of you have heard me give this speech WAY to many times for it to mean anything but hey I thought I would post it and just let some other people see what they think! I personally LOVE this speech! It was kina funny the way that I wrote it.... It started out as a persuasive easy... but then I thought I would make it a wee bit longer and compete with it in speech. Also, at this time I was starting to feel like I needed to know what my boundries were with dating and stuff like that, But my dad being the "cool" guy he is wouldn't tell me! I started to find books and read books on my own about dating and relationships. Then I wrote THIS speech. When I was done I showed it to my mom and dad and they said "OK so you agree with everything you wrote?" I said "DUH!" (LOL) and they just said ok so do we :) I was like OK! So ya that is my "interesting" story for the day! lol but ya I love this speech! DATING DILEMMAS By Sarah Moldenhaue