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Last Minute (God and Football)

My life has been full of last minute miricals. My Mom has always said that God likes to wait till the last minute so that we know know know that it is Him. I HATE THIS. The same day that our house was going to be oxctioned away from us, our loan modification that we had been waiting on for a very long time finally came though. My poor brother Stephen comes out of the shower in a towel one morning, still covered in bubbles a pertiulary large one right over his belly button. "Um, guys I think our water just got turned off." At first hearing this you could feel the mood of the room drop, then I started to laugh. We all just looked at Stephen and couldn't stop laughing. Poor a guy. Ha ha So headed to our lovely neighbor who laughed and told him to go get in her shower. By the time he got back one of my mom's friend showed up with just enough money for the water bill and a tank of gas for my car. Seth is off in Utah and very broke hardly getting by financially, and his ho

Only Though Your Eyes

I've stretched, Strived, Struggled, To see each, As you see. To have kindness, Compassion, Forgiveness, For anyone, For anything. To give support, Strength, Joy, To anyone, At anytime. To see though, Your loving eyes. Each individual, For everyone, Except me. Some how I don't believe, Your love, Your fogginess, Your value, Can reach me. I've messed up, I've hurt, And been hurt. I live in a world, All my own. I care for them, For me. Hoping just for a moment, To be worthy, To be valued. So you see me? Trying, Drowning, Pushing, Crying? I want value, Only in you. No earnings, No games, Just me. Why can I see, Them with your eyes? Yet see in myself, Only flaws? Cheap. An unpolished person, Heart, Waist, Skin, Mind. Not yet worth value. That can't be, What you see! If you see her, As a flower. See him, As a rock. What about me? Define me, As you see fit. Not by my standards, Unreachable. Only though your eyes.