This is a place of ME. This is a place where I will let the walls down and be honest. Joys and stories or tears and heartbreaks, they will all be here. Devotionals to poems, my heart is open to you. I will love well. I will love you and honer you by allowing you into my brokenness and the truth that God has reviled to me. This is a place of Me. Continue if you dare ;)

Monday, March 10, 2008

NEW RANDOM THING!

Ok guys! This is what I'm thinking about doing.... every week end (yes today is monday,.,,, I know) I wan to put my random thoughts for every day of the week.... cuz I have those a lot! lol some will be funny and some will be serious.... pretty much just random!!! lol so here is this week!

Sunday: Are sun flowers called SUN flowers because they look like the sun or because they turn towards where ever the sun is shining?

Monday: Orginized chaos!

Tuesday: The way to a girls heart is through her hair! (thanks Esther!)

Wednesday: Rest is needed in everyones life

Thursday: When we are trying to "find ourselves" We shouldn't try so hard because God knows everything about us, and in his time he will show us things about ourself. So if we are grounded in Christ we are grounded in ourselves!

Friday: The moon comes out every night, even in hard times to remind us that every day has the potential for beauty. ~The Perfect Man (it's a movie people!)

Saturday: SETH IS 15 TODAY!!!!!!! I ♥ U Bro!!!!

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

*"Dreams"*


My live was confusing,

You were there.

You told me what to do,

Showed me that you care.


My life felt complete,

You lifted my weight.

The twinkle in your eye made me giggle,

I soared like a kite.


Through the day and late into the night,

We would laugh and talk.

Telling anything and everything,

Hoping we wouldn’t get caught.


With every hug and every chat,

What I did was not smart.

Whether either of us knew it or not,

I gave you my heart.


I closed my eyes,

I didn’t want to see.

There were others,

Not just me.


You laughed and flirted,

Played a game.

Any time I had your attention,

I did the same.


I had to open my eyes,

HE wasn’t there.

It was just you and me,

To you, to HIM, and to me it wasn’t fare.


I can smile,

Every time I dream.

But it’s just that,

A DREAM.

Sunday, March 2, 2008

it's not all about me? LAME! lol jk

1 chorenhians 10:31
What ever you do, do it for the glory of GOD.

I put this verse up on my mirror in the bath room so I can read it every morning. I have to be reminded all day every day that it's not about me it's about God, and it being about God means it's about the people around us. Today I reallllllly wanted to sleep in and NOT GO TO CHURCH, while I know God would still love me I went anyways and now I'm so glad I did. Our paster used a quote that said,
"Live fully, Love wastefully." (sarah isn't smart enough to rember who said it.)

When we put these two thoughts together we can truly learn to live like Christ and live the life that Christians are supposed to.

I wrote a persuasive speech this year that is on a really hard issue for a lot of conservitive Christans to agree with. I have felt ever since summer that I was supossed to write it and give it at these tournoments. It's really hard for me because I'm really competitive.... that's just who I am! lol but I have known that I will not win with it. I'm giving it anyways.

So right after breaks (seeing who goes to the next level) I was totally happy, 2 of my speeches did really good! but once again not my persuasive. One of my friends asked me if that speech had broken, and when I told him no, he said that he was sorry and asked me what it was on and things like that. When I told him he looked at me and said, "well even if you never win anything you can do it for the LORD."

Man that one sentence made my day! I felt like it was doing no good and that I wouldn't take it to regionals and everyone that needed tohear it wouldn't. But when he said that I just had to stop and think, this is for God and he will do what he wants with it. (thanks jon!)

Today at church our paster talked about how when in the bible the woman put all her prefume on Jesus when he was all dirty, how that smell must have gone further than just Jesus. It was all she had, it was strong enough to wander out to the whole room, the house, and probally even out side of the house.

I heard that and thought that we should be like the woman and give Jesus our all then maybe our sent will reach further than we expect. But see that's not because of us it's because of God :)

(just so you all know at this last tourny I got 15 or 16 (not sure they said 2 different things) in both Duo and OI :) and had an awesome time with my friends!!!!!)