This is a place of ME. This is a place where I will let the walls down and be honest. Joys and stories or tears and heartbreaks, they will all be here. Devotionals to poems, my heart is open to you. I will love well. I will love you and honor you by allowing you into my brokenness and the truth that God has reviled to me. This is a place of Me.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Living in The Moment

Seth and Ashlynn and Austin and Me
~Prom 2009
So prom was this week end, my senior prom, my last, my most amazing prom.

I now have a boyfriend (guess the Wanted add worked ;P ) and he is one of the sweetest most amazing guys I know. God has used him to let me learn so many things but this one stands out right now... To live in the moment... no be so worried about tomorrow that you can't be happy or sad in today.

Sometimes things are so up and down around my house. One min everything will be fine and everyone is happy then something happens, big or small, and it's a mess. Whether it's Seth hitting Sam a little to hard or Dad stressed because we have no money in the bank. So there for a while I found I was more happy just not being at home as much. Don't get me wrong I love my family but something wasn't working for me. I figured out that it's all the stress, the random, uncertainties of everyday life. So I would run away rather than feel anything.

But that's not healthy.

God gives us these ups and downs so we can live them and experience all the emotions that comes along with it... When you're happy be happy. When you're sad be sad. Then let go and move on to the next unpredictable moment.

Ashley and Amber and I went to the mall today with five dollars in each of our hands to seek out the cheap treasures. Lol (we did pretty good btw) As we were walking I saw a pair of jeans that were light blue and had bleached cloud looking places on them, it looked like a pretty blue sky scene. But they had rips in them. Big ones. (While I LOVE this style it is not always looked well upon.) I looked at the girls and I was like it's Ripping Clouds! Amber said it was like God playing Peak a boo! lol Dad and Austin just thought of when Jesus returns. While Ash just couldn't get over the fact that you can't rip clouds. lol

As I thought more about what it could mean this is what I thought of... If we look close we see all the rips places and lose strings if our life. But when we step back we see the beauty of the sky that's around it... and the other way also, we can stare at the clouds all the time but that could get boring. But when we step back we see a beautiful balance of the two.... and a really cute pair of jeans!

Take the time to enjoy the rips and tares and clouds and sky in your life and not always be thinking about how long those jeans are really going to last. ;P

"For I know the plans I have for you," Declares the LORD, " Plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Jeremiah 29:11