Monday, October 19, 2009

Free To Be Me by Francesca Battistelli

At twenty years of age I'm still looking for a dream
A war is already waged for my destiny
But You've already won the battle
And You've got great plans for me
Though I can't always see, 'cause...

I got a couple dents in my fender
Got a couple rips in my jeans
Try to fit the pieces together
But perfection is my enemy
And on my own I'm so clumsy
But on Your shoulders I can see
I'm free to be me When

I was just a girl I thought I had it figured out
See my life will turn out right
And I'll make it here somehow
But things don't always come that easy
And sometimes I would doubt, 'cause...

I got a couple dents in my fender
Got a couple rips in my jeans
Try to fit the pieces together
But perfection is my enemy
And on my own I'm so clumsy
But on Your shoulders I can see
I'm free to be me

And you're free to be you
Sometimes I believe
That I can do anything
Yet other times I think
I've got nothing good to bring
But You look at my heart and you tell me
That I've got all You seek
And it's easy to believe, even though...

I got a couple dents in my fender
Got a couple rips in my jeans
Try to fit the pieces together
But perfection is my enemy
And on my own I'm so clumsy
But on Your shoulders I can see
I'm free to be me

And you're free to be you

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Update on life!

God does some weird things. Sometimes we need to step back and then take a step to fallow him in trust and faith.



There you go. That sums up my life right about now! lol



Well I'm going to Beauty school now. I thought I was going there to learn to make peole look good and feel good about themselves. Okay ya but there is so much more to it than that!



At school about half of the people I'm with and talking to all day work night jobs and "gentelmans clubs". Most of the girls are already moms. Most of them no older than me. So so much pain. So much gossip. So much hidding. Hurt. Lost. Confused. Surching.

I know now that God has placed me there to be a light. Maybe I'll never get to be a "witness" to any of them but I can live in light and not judge and love them all... sometimes that's the best we can do. Though if God opens the door I'll jump and do a handspring (gymnast at heart still!) through and give it my all. These girls are all trying to make a better life for themselves and kids. They are so so strong and smart. I really respect them.

Saying that, it has been hard to go from a strict homeschool enviorment to a very open "free" way of looking at life. I have had to leave class beacuse of movies showing. Stand there and wrapping perms praying for the girls around me listing to their stories. Keep my mouth shut even when I have so so much to say. Answer questions on why I wear a ring on my left hand and am not engaged (purity ring just in case you didn't know :D). I got in trouble for talking about church and politics.

I have felt so so alone and trapped in a world where I didn't fit in or have any support. I did hunt down a couple christan girls who I love dearly :) but it's still not like we can even talk about anything that really matters in life. lol No wonder people think hairstylests are air heads! They are all to afraid to offend some one to share anything smart! Sigh. lol

One story really fast before I fall asleep! one of my favorite educaters told this to us in class...

There was a Salon owner. One day about two min till close one day a lady came in asking for a hair cut, it was late and none of the stylests wanted to take her. So the owner took her back to a chair herself.

She noticed when the Lady walked it that she was kinda out of it not looking anyone in the eye giving yes and no answers to everything slouching in the chair. The owner talked to the lady and tried to get her to loosen up a little and give her a hair style that would make her feel good abou herself. She also asked the lady about her life and just anything she could do to keep the lady talking. She didn't learn much about the lady but an hour lader the guest walked out of the store with a smile on her face. The owner saw that she was talking more and looking her in the eye more and standing up straight.

The owner closed up and moved on with life but still wondering about the lady that seemed so down.

A few days lader the lady called and told her she wanted to thank her. Because she was planning on killing herself that night. The fact that the owner stayed open late just for her and spent a whole hour showing she was important and beautiful changed how she looked at life and decided to give living another go.

Yes our job goes way beyond hair. You never know who might be sitting in your chair and che chance you have to change a life. Just as important as a polition or a muscian thank you very much ;)

What Guys Hate! (5. Stop! Think!)

So this is the last I'm going to do on the whole guys/girls thing. I mostly want to bring it back to the main point. My almost-brother Kyle reminded me that some some times guys like it when girls do some of the little "annoying" things I have been talking about.

Though a lot of the time it's when you're already dating the guy when they like these things. My boyfriend loves getting off work to 10 random texts about whatever comes to mind when we aren't talking.... or so he says... lol ;)

All I'm going to say is play it by ear. There is a guy out there for each of you and you don't need to play games to get him. If he is the right one he will love you for you :) all this was for is to maybe open some minds to how guys think a little more.

So ladies!

You have some ideas. You are figuring out who YOU are. You are learning who God made YOU. Go out there with confidance and have fun!... Okay not TOO much ;)

Monday, September 7, 2009

What Guys Hate! (4. What are you thinking?)

What the guys said!

"We can't read minds!"

"How am I supposed to tell what you're thinking if you don't tell me?"

"How would I know? You never said that."

Ladies, the guys will be the first to admit that they can't read us! We often think, hey maybe I could drop a hint here, or maybe I'll kinda say what I mean and make him figure it out. Ya sorry guys are stupid when it comes to us, though we girls could use some help on learning about guys too. lol

But we blame them for messing up all the time when they don't really even know what the heck we want! It's not fair to play games or drop hints. If by some mirical they pick up on a hit you drop it will most likely be taken the wrong way. lol So don't even risk it with something important.

Guys like black and white. That's what they understand. Weather it's about if you like him or not, or what you guys are going to do today, or that you want him to buy you flowers, or serious things like how you're feeling, or sexual boundries. BLACK AND WHITE PLEASE! None of this making them guess or using "colors" or "gray areas" . You will never be happy or get what you want if you're not straight up with them. If they ask a question then PLEASE give them a straight up answer. ( I know I know I suck at this but I'm working on it!)

BUT.

Guys do like mystry. We can be flirty and fun and some what mysterious. Just not about all the little things that don't matter or all the big things that really really matter. Keep that in mind when learning to interact with guys.

One last serious thought. If you give a straight answer about ANYTHING stick to it. Don't let they guys change your mind... I tnow they are oh so cute but don't let that control you ;) That's for God to do. :)
love ya'll!!!

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

What Guys Hate! (3. TALKING!)

What the guys said!

"When girls talk about random nothings for hours at a time."
"Gossip"
"Calling other girls sluts beause they are prettier or have a better body than you"

Pretty much in the words of Peter Pan "Girls talk to much!"

Part 1. Randomly Talking

An old proverb once said, "Do not speak unless you can improve the silence."

I am a girl, I know how our minds work. Shiny! Sun! Hockey! Hair! Boys! Jump! Email! Flying! Time! Boys! Text! Bunny! Clouds!

Ya.... guys don't laugh that took me about 10 seconds to come up with, its just how we think.
Girls here is a test, have a guy read those random thoughts I garentee that all they will say is "wow" or "what the heck is she on?" lol
Guys don't think this way, and it drives them crazy in abut 3 minutes. Going back to the last blog, unless you have something to say, in the words of Josiah, "You're prettier when you don't talk."

Part 2. Gossip!

Yes this is a hard one, because half of the time we don't know that we are doing it. But it's not only something that hurts others, starts fights, breaks up friendships, but it drives the guys CRAZY!
there is a goo reason it does too, and that's because it's stupid! lol Sometimes we do need to talk to someone about those around us, work through things with someone else. That's okay. Find one or two GIRLS you can really trust and talk to them about it. Guys don't want to hear about all our girl drama.

Part 3. Bad Mouthinging

So if you see a girl that always turns the heads of the guys that you are with, Do NOT call her a slut or a whore. First off she probably is a normal girl she is insicure and dealing with really hard things. Sometimes the guys say it, then it must really be true! But really I walk around all the time with groups of guys, yes I get dirty looks, so really why would I want to do that to someonther girl. Just don't bad mouth another girl beause she is always with guys, is really pretty, or has a better body. Be conifdant in YOU.

I think I will always close with this, Girls God made YOU for a reason. Please please find who you are in him and grow in that. Let God be your guide. When you can do that you are capible of catching any guys eye. Because a guy like someone who is different, and a girl who is confidant, THAT is different.

Saturday, July 11, 2009

What Guys Hate! (2. Drama Queens! x2)

Just have to say.... I just got a lap top! This is the first blog written on it! lol



Okay Let's Just Jump In!
This is what the guys said!



"Really Clingy."

"Self-exclusion just for attiontion."

"Supper flirty"

"Acting like their life is horible when it is really better than most"



So what does this mean?



DON'T BE A DRAMA QUEEN!



There are two main ways to do this. 1. Being Clingy, and 2. Excluding yourself. Both of these thing are don for the same reason... to get as much attiontion as you can and have every one focused on you. Ouch. I know right? But seriously it's true. Yes we all do this in some form but we are only going to look at the top two the guys talked about.



Part 1. Being Realy Clingy!



Okay this goes for if you are dating the guy, if you just like him, if you are trying to get him to like you, or if you are even just friends!
TEXTING!!!!!!
I know I know guys are so much more fun to text than other girls, espechialy when we're bored. But the guys really can't take it all the time. What's to much then? Yes it depends on the guy and what your relationship with them is. Unless you are dating and he just loves to talk or HE starts the convo, I'm sorry! Once a day is to much! Once every three days isn't bad. Once or twice a week would be great!
When a guy get's five texts a day telling him how hungry you are, what you're wearing, what your pet did that day, or the latest gossip.... He will someday just stop responding. If you really like talking to a guy here's some good rules of thumb if you're not sure if you should text him or not. Ask these questions.
1. When was the last time you talked?
Yesterday? To soon. Wait at least one day if not two before starting a convo.
2. Who started the last convo?
You? okay make him take a turn, this is also a good way to see if he WANTS to talk to you.
3. Do you have a reason to talk to him?
Not really? Ya come up with something better than that.


Now if you are in a group and alwas jumping in the middle of the circles, fallowing the guy around, talking to him even if you're half way across the room, tring to keep a text convo going when he is right next to you, ANYTHING where you force him to focous on you. He will start avoding you.

Part 2. Excluding Yourself/ Self Pitty

Okay I see this WAY to much. If you're having a bad day I understand... But it isn't going to get any better if you sulk in the corner when there are other people around. Ultimitly you just want someone to come over and see if you're okay. You want everyone to look at you and talk about you. You want them to wonder if you're ok. Not Okay. If you're having a bad day you should have a good friend that you can talk to, talk it through with them and then move on and interact with the people around you.
Also, guys really hate it when you say life is horible and this and this and this is bad and that no one understands. Seriously? Is you're life so much worse tha everyone elses? If all you do is complain the guys will start thinking that you are constantly PMSing. MAJOR TURN OFF. lol


So ladies I said this before, but really what everything boiles down to is confidance. Be yourself. Not over the top. Not all emo. The guys will see you much better if you don't do things that make them mad and drive them crazy. Just don't creat drama.

Sunday, July 5, 2009

What Guys Hate! ( 1. Being what you're not 1&2)

Okay! Here it goes! I have been talking to some of my close guy friends and getting the top five things that drives them crazy! I got some really good answers, actually enough ideas to do 12 blogs! lol but I think I'll tie some together so I don't have to do that much. :) so here it goes!

Ladies this is what the guys said!

"Self counsous around others"
"Being a ditz"
"Pretending to be what their not for a guy"
"Acting like their 10"
"If you got it flaunt it, if you don't got it don't flaunt it"
"Don't put on every kind of make up you own, we don't like it"

So if this is what the guys said, and we all know we do one or more of these things all the time... What do we do about it?

PART 1~ Pretending to be what your not for a guy


We all do this every day. Some of us wake up and put on the mask for that day, every day may be different. Put on make-up to cover up the real you. Now I'm not saying make up is bad or you can't be in a different mood everyday, heck I love make-up and never live the same day twice. But when we walk out the door and go to school, the movies, the mall, park, or just hanging out around the guys, we change. Some times we pretend to be a ditz, or wine like we're 10, or always follow a guy around and talk to him non-stop... even when there is really nothing to say. Sometimes we stand back and watch the other girls (the "pros") take over, running to the bathroom every 5 min to see how our hair looks or to put on more lip gloss. Every one of these things the guys complain about all the time! Mostly the guys want to know YOU. Girls always say to me "he doesn't care" or "he won't ask about me". NO DUH! If they think you're putting on a show or just doing things to get them to like you they don't want to spend the time trying to figure out what part of you they see is really YOU! So here's what we do. Learn who you are. Yes I know, believe me I know, this can be hard. I doubt we will ever know fully, but once we figure at least a piece of this out life will be so much easier in every way. When you wake up tomorrow think to your self, Who do I want to be today? not, Who am I seeing today? or What would Bob think of this shirt? figure out who YOU are, even if just for the day, and stick to that. This gives the guys so much less guessing and so much more of getting to know the REAL and AMAZING person YOU are. Yes, they might actually try if they don't have to go through 500 layers just to see a glimpse of you. ;)

PART 2~ If you got it flaunt it, if you don't, don't.

A friend once told me that it made him mad when girls tried to dress to impress. "If we ask you out don't go find the shortest skirt you can and lowest cut shirt you have. Don't put on every kind of make-up you own. If we like you don't try to cover you up." Who would have thunk it right?! Seriously girls we are all made in every color, shape, and size. So figure out what you are and try to dress to that. My friend Ashley can't wear as low cut shirts as I can because of how she is built but I can't wear the heals and short skirts she can. We are both beautiful, but different. This goes for all parts of how we look. With hair, make-up, clothes, shoes. Don't try to be the models on TV because you never will be satisfide with yourself if you do. Let me let you in on a little secret... the guys really don't think most of those girls are hot, they say they are all skin and bones and weird clothes. WOW! I know right!? So I don't know how I am good at this resurch but could never resurch for debate... but I found some stuff that might help us all out :)

Dress for Your Body Type

How to put on the Right Mak-up

Right Hair for the Right Face