This is a place of ME. This is a place where I will let the walls down and be honest. Joys and stories or tears and heartbreaks, they will all be here. Devotionals to poems, my heart is open to you. I will love well. I will love you and honor you by allowing you into my brokenness and the truth that God has reviled to me. This is a place of Me.

Wednesday, December 19, 2007



I don’t understand,

Why duct tape fixes everything,

Why chicken soup always makes you feel better.

Why chocolate makes you fat.

Most of all I don’t understand,

Why people can’t forgive.

Grudges are held,

Hate is heated,

Light goes to black,

Friends to enemies,

Instruments fade away and voices get louder.

What I understand the most is,

When we forgive,

Grudges are let go,

Hate cools,

Sun comes back,

Enemies become friends,

What I hear is music to my ears.

Sunday, December 9, 2007

Trusting people!

How can you prove to some one that you mean what you say? You can say the same thing over and over bit they still might not listen to you. Benjermen Franklin has a simple answer. He said, "People may doubt what you say, but they will alway believe what you do." What Mr. Fanklen is saying is that to fain someones trust you have to show them, not jsut tell them. I can promise my mom that I'll clean my room but, that promise means nothing until I actually do it .......oops! lol

We can also apply this to our lives as Christians. In order to get people to listen to us we have to show them what we are different. If we say we are different because of Christ then go get drunk, our actions will speak louder than words.

So next time you say you will do something, DO IT! ( yes I need to clean my room). Next time you say you are different, PROVE IT! If you do this, over time more and more people will trust you more and more and let me tell ya, having people trust you is a great feeling :)

Friday, December 7, 2007


It's closing in all around me,
Coming closer I can hardly see.
There's a 10 pound weight on my chest,
Seriously you're lucky I'm even dressed.
I'm stuck in a mess,
This little thing called stress.
All the voices getting loud,
I wish I could float away on a cloud.
A smile every where I go,
The things I deal with no one will ever know.
I want to sink down deep,
Into an ever lasting sleep.
Never to rise,
And face the endless lies.
I don't understand,
Why am I always the one getting slammed?
I know every one else has bad problems too,
But they all seem to have a matt, jack, or sue.
My friends see me glow,
So many things, would they care to know?
I reach for someone with which my pain to share,
But as I reach the only thing I feel is air.
At the end there used to be hope,
But now I see NOTHING that can help me cope.
With the pain inside,
Little by little I have died.
Now there's barely anything there,
How can I continue to bear?
Someone is throwing a dart,
Right into my heart.
The ones I thought loved me,
Are as far away as the sea.
Yes, I have pride,
I have nearly always lied.
Standing in line,
They ask me if I'm fine.
Of course I am,
I say as I throw up my big dam.
Do I dare?
Would anyone care?
It's seems,
Everything pours over into my dreams.
In the night obsessing over everything,
I jump as I hear the dinging.
Killing my head,
Telling me it's time to get out of bed.
No matter what I say it's time to get up and face another day.

Tuesday, December 4, 2007


see no color!! but I'm thinking I'll do purple like jen's next.. like soon? lol love ya!

OK I CUT MY HAIR!! like 6" off it!!! lol so the first pic I really like but if you look close at the 2nd pic at he back ground it's just realllly cool!! lol so ya! tell me what ya'll think!

Monday, December 3, 2007

different people

I just finished reading a book (bright purple by melody carlson) it is absolutely amazing. It's part of a series that deals with hard issues for teens today. I HIGHLY RECOMMEND ALL OF THEM!
This one was about homosexuals. Basically this girls best friend tells her she is a lesbian. She has to work through all her fear, anger, confusion, and hate. By the end of the book she comes to realize that while homosexuality is a sin Jesus still wants us to love and accept the person though not the sin.

Do you remember that story in the bible where the prostitute is about to get stoned and Jesus of all people comes to her defense? "Let you who have no sin cast the first stone." Basically he is the only one that could do that. He saved this lady's life by loving her. She changed and they all went on ladedodeda. No it doesn't always happen like that, sometimes people don't change, things don't always work out.
Now you might be thinking, "well I am not a homosexual, prostitute, druggie, or alcoholic. So I don't have that sin." Haha ya well think again! The lord says that all the sins are the same to him. They are all things against what he wants and says in the Bible. So to him it doesn't matter if I reach for a cookie I'm not supposed to have or if I reach for dope. One sin is not bigger than the other. What matters is if I'm willing to give God a chance to help me.

Yes it is God who can change a person but it is also our responsibility as Christians to show his love and acceptance to EVERYONE, We may not agree with them or have the same morals or approve of their choices, But God says "hate the sin not the person"
So that is what I'm going to do. I'm going to reach outside of my box and love somebody different. I chalange you to do the same, today in your everyday life try reaching out to some one who is different and loving them for the person God made them to be not the baad choices.