This is a place of ME. This is a place where I will let the walls down and be honest. Joys and stories or tears and heartbreaks, they will all be here. Devotionals to poems, my heart is open to you. I will love well. I will love you and honor you by allowing you into my brokenness and the truth that God has reviled to me. This is a place of Me.

Saturday, September 15, 2007

Being yourself

Being your self no matter what? oh gosh that's hard! I think I finally started being my self no matter where I am or who I'm with. this has been a big step for me. I have always felt like I'm one person at gymnastics, one person at school, one person at church,one person at speech and debate. That is like 4 different people I am! That isn't very healthy. Yet it's something almost everyone will go through before they are grown, most will fight it for the rest of their life too. about 3 months ago I finally figured out who I am. Now that person isn't going to be some one realllly smart, realllly athletic, or realllly artsy. I am all of those things wrapped in one, I'm not really good at any of them but put a little of each together and that's me! Yesterday 2 of my best friends were declared speech captains for our club. It's really hard not to be jealous because I have done speech longer than both of them. But one thing they don't know is I'm the captain of my gymnastics team. If I step back and look I would prefer to be the captain of gymnastics more than the speech team. First thought I would rather do it for speech because that's where most of my friends would see that I'm good at something, but stepping back that's not what I should care about. I would make a much better gymnastics captain than a speech captain. I'm ok with being my self now and doing what I do for me to please God and not other people and trying to impress others. because I would never survive my life if I tried to conform to what others think. I'm happy just being me and by being me its being what God wants me to be. Yes I do care about what my close friends think, because their opinion often reflects what God's oppion of me is. But other than that I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU THINK! lol and oh gosh it's so nice knowing that I only have to please God and not everyone else! lol
ok so I'm done rambling on.... lol ya NIGHT!!!


*~*~*Gothic*~*~* said...

Sarah this is great for you I'm really happy for you!
I've never really had a problem being myself, and I never really change if I'm hanging out with certain people, But I have noticed that not everyone likes that and some people don't exactly LIKE me, But I've just always said Oh well It doesn't matter because if they don't like ME they wouldn't be good friends anyways!
I love you Sarah!

♥Sarah♥ said...

Well I'm glad you figered that out!!! lol it took me a wile but your so right!!!

Paula said...

I think some of the best parts about you are how versatile you are. I love your spunk and strength and creativity and intelligence. You wouldn't be you if you were just one thing. And we love you when you're just yourself. I do think sometimes we respond differently to different settings, but that doesn't always mean we aren't being ourselves. There are people that bring out my humor and people that bring out my more serious side, but both are me, you know? I think I'm more playful with my writer friends than my homeschool friends. I don't know why. It just comes out that way because of the dynamics of the relationship.

♥Sarah♥ said...

yep I toatally agree :) and it's true you are way more "weird" when your with your writer friends!!! lol (ok people it's soooo funny to watch! try going to lunch with all of them!! it's sooo funny! in a good way :) )

Chiarra said...

hey girl how can you be up that late and publish something that powerful? i don't get it!!!! oh well it must be a gift from God!!! lol!! love you and thanks for posting comments on my blog!!! i love you 4 you and who you r!!!!

♥Sarah♥ said...

lol thanks! I'm very much a night person! but I'm glad you liked it :)

Anonymous said...

thank you for dropping by. good to know that you're also watching daystar.

God bless. =D

♥Sarah♥ said...

Hey! I think my mom might have let a post on your blog under my name by mistake.... lol but it's cool to meet you and I'd love to check out you blog when I get a chance!

My mother and I agree that you are absolutely beautiful!!!!! lol thanks again!