Being your self no matter what? oh gosh that's hard! I think I finally started being my self no matter where I am or who I'm with. this has been a big step for me. I have always felt like I'm one person at gymnastics, one person at school, one person at church,one person at speech and debate. That is like 4 different people I am! That isn't very healthy. Yet it's something almost everyone will go through before they are grown, most will fight it for the rest of their life too. about 3 months ago I finally figured out who I am. Now that person isn't going to be some one realllly smart, realllly athletic, or realllly artsy. I am all of those things wrapped in one, I'm not really good at any of them but put a little of each together and that's me! Yesterday 2 of my best friends were declared speech captains for our club. It's really hard not to be jealous because I have done speech longer than both of them. But one thing they don't know is I'm the captain of my gymnastics team. If I step back and look I would prefer to be the captain of gymnastics more than the speech team. First thought I would rather do it for speech because that's where most of my friends would see that I'm good at something, but stepping back that's not what I should care about. I would make a much better gymnastics captain than a speech captain. I'm ok with being my self now and doing what I do for me to please God and not other people and trying to impress others. because I would never survive my life if I tried to conform to what others think. I'm happy just being me and by being me its being what God wants me to be. Yes I do care about what my close friends think, because their opinion often reflects what God's oppion of me is. But other than that I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU THINK! lol and oh gosh it's so nice knowing that I only have to please God and not everyone else! lol
ok so I'm done rambling on.... lol ya NIGHT!!!