This is a place of ME. This is a place where I will let the walls down and be honest. Joys and stories or tears and heartbreaks, they will all be here. Devotionals to poems, my heart is open to you. I will love well. I will love you and honor you by allowing you into my brokenness and the truth that God has reviled to me. This is a place of Me.

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

The Track

Every time I think I'm done it's back,
As if I was running on a track.
Far away I think I'm done,
Looking up only to see that I have more to run.

Wanting to jump the circle... round and round,
Yet there is something keeping me bound.
Begging till I'm emotionally dead,
God why can't I cut the thread!?

Whatever it is in which I'm stuck,
The place where I'm out of luck.
Not knowing wheat I'm supposed to learn,
Where emotions and pain sear and burn.

Memories everywhere I go,
Ice cream, stores, or a show.
Each flash back stabbing and hurting,
Pulling me back to when life was about enjoying.

Back to where I started,
To that night we parted.
Tears streaming,
Each one full of meaning.

Not sure what to do with emotion,
Easy just to shut it in a tin.
Binding it tight so no one sees my need,
Holding the wound so no one can see it bleed.

This is where I am,
No longer telling you I can.
No longer in a circle, but straight in line I'll go,
Some day, even to me the pain will no longer show.

May that day come fast,
And for a long while last.
Filling me from above,
With hope and love.


Kaleb Jones said...

very good sarah i love it
ur good in the subject of writting lol ;)

Amber said...

Agreed, like I just said you've really improved! Your stuff was great before, I don't know how you made it better! :P I think this poem pretty much everyone can relate to. It brings back our own thoughts of feeling like this, or wanting to. It's like just by being born we sign ourselves up for a race that's too long for our limits. But that's how you learn to push them and grow, by testing yourself and pushing through when you don't want to. Eventually, you won't have to test yourself so hard. Your limits will be farther off. Your muscles will be stronger, able to endure longer...even if it takes a little rest for you to realize it. Then it won't hurt as much, and that is what I believe. ;D

♥Sarah♥ said...

HA HA HA thanks Kaleb!

Amber dear I wish you could blog! you have so much cool stuff to say and it always makes me look at things differently and you meake me feel like I have helped others,,, thanks so much! I love you!

Phoebe said...

I agree with Sarah, Amber. I wish you could blog too. You would get a TON of readers! And Sarah, you have helped so may people, including me. You both are friends that I wish everybody could have! <3

Amber said...

Aww, thank you girls!! That's so sweet! Lol, I will deffinately have a blog when I'm able to, no worries! I love you both so much!! ♥