Broken Love

Here she lays, All alone. Beautiful even in dispare, A Princess . Worn from battle, Slowing breaths. Blood, sweat, and tears, Blood she wishes was hers. Bow without arrows, Sward dull. No reason to move, Nothing left to give. Fought with her all, To protect. Those she loves, Now safe. Where are they now? By her side? Turning to save her? Where are they now? Here she lays, All alone. Beautiful even in death, A Princess .

I'm done!!!! I'm so so freakn done! I'm done feeling like less. I'm done feeling stupid. I'm done falling for the lie that I'm not as good as the next Joe or Sally because I don't fit in the "right" box. I am freaking brilliant! If you can't see that... well your loss! Unlike many, I don't need someone else to tell me what to think, to tell me right from wrong, to show me what to do with my life. I am smart! I'm the person that people come to every day when they need help. I'm the person that will be straight with some one when others say what they want to hear. I make people feel beautiful. People stop and look at me and say "wow I've never told anyone that before". I give anyone who asks a safe enviorment to be who they really are, whoever that may be... So at the end of the day forgive me if I can't keep up with your mind twisting debates.... I'm sleepy from dealing with the heart of the people around me. Fr...

Two worlds, You and me. Feet apart, Yet the distance grows. Old blankets, Stale popcorn, Bird friends, Pen and paper. New camera, Fresh coffee, Loving community, Pen and paper. A Smile. The distance srinks. Ciggarette in hand, Torn scarff, Worn shirt, Watching the world. Cell phone in hand, Painted nails, New jacket, Watching the world. A smile. The distance shrinks. What makes us so different? Shoes on our feet? Clothes on our back? The place we sleep? This isn't WHO we are, Only what people SEE. We all ezperiance life, Good and bad. Our own set of struggles, One not making us better. This is who we are. Free spirits, Surching for direction. Hearts, Longing for love. A smile. The distance shrinks. Eyes surching, For new adventure. Body longging, To be free. Piggions eating popcorn, Not caring who's side their on. Yours or mine, It's all the same. Living life together. When I went to see my man in Cali I was wandering around San Diago while David was at work. I came across ...

Just some more stories I thought I'd share to give you some more ideas of how you can "Change The(ir) World". 1. Taking flowers to ladies at the bank :) Those poor ladies get to deal with people and their money... So either it's a really good positive experience or a really hard negitive experience. This is the same with pretty much anyone in the service industry. Giving those ladies flowers was a great way to make them smile, and they got so excited the next time I came in to. It built a good relationship, we now smile and talk every time I go in. :) 2. Thanksgiving night Jennie, Kirsten, and I decided that we HAD to have some McDonalds sweet tea and a movie... yeah it's what we do when we're together. :P We went in and it was pretty busy for 8pm on a holiday. I guess they were thinking everyone would be sleeping drunk on turkey by that time because they didn't have enough people working. The two ladies up front were talking and almost panicing runing aro...

My lovely Jennie and I often talk about "changing the world" one day, we have thoughts and plans and dreams of making this world a better place. Showing God's love and making others smile and bring them colser to him. But guess what? We've found out that we can't change the world! Darn. I was frusterated with this fact the other day and talking to David abou it. After letting me ramble (like I often do), Then said this... "Sarah you can't change the "world", but each person lives in their own "world" and THAT world you can change." Wow. So person by person we can try to change THEIR world and hopfully they will pass it on. Who know's one small act could ripple around the world... WE CAN CHANGE THE WORLD! Even if it doesn't we've put a smile on someones face, warmed their heart, maybe even put a seed in their spirit :) Their world was changed. Now, I'm going to tell you some stories. I'm not telling these to too...

Every Sunday night after the collage group at church we head across the street to Wendy's for some snacks. These nights are good nights of "interesting" jokes, thoughtful questions, mostly just lots of laughs. But, a few weeks ago it was very different. I went outside for a min to call my boyfriend (David... yes, he is incredible), When I came back in to one of my friend explaining cutting and the reasons and emotions behind it to others at the table... everyone was dumbfounded. We kept talking and each ended up talking about both past and present struggles we have had... Cutting, alcohol, porn, depression, hate, eating disorders, and other things. For some it wasn't the first time for us to share in a trusting group of friends... for others they had never experianced the non-judgemental, trust, honesty, and love that was there that night. It was very amazing to see hearts open up that had been sealed for so long :) Amazing how God works. As we were sitting there one ...

First off... I passed both the piratical and the written for my cosmetology license! Praise the LORD! Just had to say that :) So the past few weeks a lot has changed... 1. My ex started dating someone else... LONG story and it's been like 6 months but it hasn't been easy. But it's what I needed to move on. I had moved on in many many ways but there was still this string. It's finally cut. I wish them the best. Through that God has really been working on my heart. I always thought I was a very forgiving person... I still think I am... But not as much as I thought I was. I'm learning what it's like to forgive through the pain and not hold on to the bitterness... But it's been a very good and enlightening lesson :) 2.I don't know what you my dear readers believe about God giving spiritual gifts in today's world... But I believe whole heartedly that we shouldn't limit the amazing almighty God who are we as his creations to limit him to a time. It jus...