Pain.

You thought I'd be the one, all the Fing guilt trips. All the tears. I tried so Fing hard! And YOU wouldn't trust ME? BS! You were just scared of yourself. So glad I figured that out... over a year to late. I defended you over and over... your pure motives.

You took EVERYTHING. You know that right? I cried over you AGAIN last night... tonight the tears are regret of any other tears ever shed over you.

Now you've changed me into something I never thought I'd become.

This stops here.

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Paula said…
Praying for you, Sarah. I know you are working through this. It's important to understand these things now and be able to move on. Learn. Then forgive and let it go. Forgive him, but also forgive yourself for trusting and not seeing through it all. People are not all or nothing. We each have our wonderful qualities and we each have our wounds. You don't have to be in that relationship, but don't harbor bitterness. Be glad you learned and grew and will be wiser from here on.

I love you forever, sweetie. You have a beautiful heart that is becoming wiser and stronger. Remember all the ways he helped you, too. Not just this painful place.
October 4, 2010 at 7:40 AM
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