Broken Love

So around this time last year I posted that my life flashed before my eyes.... and guess what it happened again! I was going to chemistry (and I'm allllll done now! yay! ) and as i pulled up these three dogs were around my car like wating for me to get out... now first I have always had nightmares about dogs chasing me... part of the reason I'm up this late...I don't want to sleep. lol so I'm sitting there thinking maybe I shouldn't get out of the car... but then I'm like "your so being stupid sarah!" so I got out of the car and got my books and everything then started to SLOWLY walk across the street to my teachers house... and they kinda start barking and growling a little... so I kinda started to talk nicely to them (like that would help) and kept walking slowly... then one of them took a step twards me and so I started to back up... then they charged me! so I throw my books at the one nearest me ( I think he was like the leader or something) and hi...

Once again I can put on a smile, Proudly covering it for a while. Years of work undone, Back past where it begun. Nothing is what it used to be, Not even how I see. Colors dissapre., More and more with every unshed tear. One little word... HOPE, Some how always helped me cope. The word that used to keep me strong, It's not working... It's gone. Hope stood up and left, Or maybe it's theft. The devil grabbing and stealing, Any chance I have of healing. Completely a lone, What is he doing up on His mighty throne? Maybe shedding a tear or two, Like there's nothing He can do! Friends falling apart, For once I don't know where to start. They all say I'm outside the norm, No idea that behind the smile rages a storm. Stomic always in knots, In my head hearing shots. Eyes aching, Heart breaking. Life as a whole, Is out of my control. I don't know what to do, There's no one to hand it to. Exhausted to no extent, Every last reserve spent. Into bed I'm falling, ...