Broken Love

I SAW MY LIFE FLASH BEFORE MY EYES! Ya... scary hu? lol well I kinda had a car wreck.... ya it was a couple days ago..... and let me tell ya I'm still shaking from it!! I didn't hit anything or gt hurt but the car is kinda sad... lol we are trying to fix it... but I can't drive it. So that plus other stuff that has been happening... like trying to get a job.... missing all my friends..... and stuff like that, I'm like totally over the top. But I have really for the first time in my life felt God holding my hand through it all. He has been right there the whole time even when I was spinning out of control I knew God was there I just felt it... it was a weird but awesome feeling. After that happened I realized how much each and every one of my friends means to me. Everyone from the people I haven't seen in a few years to my closest friends. If anything happeneds to any of them or to me it's just really great to know that we are friends and care about each other an...

This morning was total crap! I got up had a fight with my parents, I was soooo mad and stuff that Seth... yes this is MY BROTHER SETH.... like the one that beats me up... lol anyway he gave me a real hug!!! lol For those of you who know how Seth and I are (we love each other and show it by hitting or mouthing off to each other) you know that's pretty much amazing! So I go to church and I pretty much yell at God the whole service. Our paster talked about having people that you could talk to and having people that are always there for you and being there for others. Also, how God is always there..... ya I had 2 of my best friends EVER on ether side of me and I don't know if I have a pride issue... or what because I couldn't admit to them that I just needed a friend to give me a hug and maybe even cry with me (yes Sarah does cry.... sometimes lol). And I'm yelling at God because he made me this way. Because he wasn't there for me, ever since I got back from camp it se...

Before I go in to this I just want to say I believe in what I see in the Bible, you are born a sinner and unless you turn to God and give your life over to him then you will die a sinner and go to hell. This doesn't explain WHY? When we have angels and demons, God and Satan. Why can't we just settle everything on earth? Or why dose the spiritual people have to pull us in to their stuff? Why would such a "all loving", "merciful" ,"caring" , God put some people in hell and some in heaven? When God has said in the Bible that every sin is just that a sin. Some one might kill their sister, but I might just think about killing my brothers (lol), it's all the same to God a sin is a sin. So why do when I say I'm sorry for my sins and the other dude just laughs at God what did he do to deserve eternal damnation??? I have to say I feel sorry for the people that don't know and/or don't care about what happens in the "after life". SO...

Ok guys! Here is what my day was like! I got up did math that I actually understood (for those of you who know me well you know that like NEVER happens!) then I went to work on year book! Yes I love doing this! I got there about 11:30am and didn't get home till 10:00pm! I was soooo in heaven we worked on so much stuff like the love bug page.... MY ALL TIME FAVORITE! We finished the year book! During this time I put in an applications at a cool place to work because I knew the manger would be there. When I went in and gave him my application, he said he would look over it and call me to set up an interview. Now guys, I have one friend that works there and another that just picked up an application! Wouldn't that be awesome to work with 2 of my good friends!?!?! lol Ok so I think it would be heaven! Just pray that I get the job! Guys I can't explain the fun I had today! I saw my whole year laid out before me in our year book and this year has been one of the best and worst ...

You have all at least heard of the Harry Potter books.... if not......... I'll give you a little of the story line...... Harry Potter was just a baby when the most powerful wizard killed his mom and dad and tried to kill him, but for some reason the little baby got away with only a scar on his forehead. Now this was unheard of, if this guy wanted you dead then you would be dead. Through out all the books he is questioning why did this have to happen? Why me? Why can't I just be normal and have my parents? In the long run he ends up saving his school, his friends, his teachers, and in a few ways he saves the world. It was all because of what happened when he was little.... if he was normal, if he did have his parents, if he didn't have amazing and unusual talents because of the scar (kinda), he would not have been able to stand up and save him self and all these people. So why the heck did I just say all that? Because I often ask God why? why me? Why can't I just be lik...